What certainty can you offer?

is it worth it? Now are you happy with you have got? Im sorry but for me i dont know if this all worth it or not. If this is worth the wait and pain you put me through. U have never given me any assurance, all the proven tickets you have showed is all the past and u still didnt make it until today. You are still wherever you are and i am still here wherever i am. So this time if things were ever fixed, it will still be a long distance relationship and nothing less than that. You ask yourself whether it is worth the time and energy because all this while it is you who take all the decisions in your hands and exclude me just the same way you deleted me from your life or your list and add me back whenever you feel like. Where is my space to get say what i have to say then? You tell the whole wide world i am your girl but did you prove it to me that i am your girl? Ask yourself that. If by words could mean thousand things to you then actions means million more to me. Dont blame me for this because you have made me come to this stage and why? Because i have always lived by the words you said to me but where is it? Till today you know what you owe me. You can compare this situation to anybody's situation but ask them girls, were they left unnoticed? Because according to your sensible words, you were only going for two weeks. What happened to that two weeks now it has become nine months. So ask yourself, is that fair for me? And till then what have i got in return, abused, accused and threatens by you. To top it off, i was deleted for the space that you want for yourself. Let me ask you, what space do you want? As far as i know it, for however fucking long you are at wherever you are now is just you by yourself, i am not there and your parents are not there. What is the tension then? You are with your friends every single day, aint that living life? No one stop you from doing whatever you want to do. More than being understanding, i flew down to you despite whatever problem you have that you cant make it down. Did you appreciate that? I dont think so because if you do, you wouldn't blame me for not fixing anything, it was you who caused the whole problem. Your fake promises. So now ask yourself, if i am the one you really want to be with then prove me wrong. Nothing else but prove me wrong cause i am not going to tolerate anymore excuses after this and ended up waiting for another year. It is just not fair.