First things first, even though I thought I was funny and naive but those posts brought back so many beautiful memories. I mean in the beginning of this blog, I was my real pure white self. That innocent naive girl getting to know the world, discovering love, discovering friends, learning things and basically the whole thing was a learning process. I didn't realize I was such a happy-go-lucky girl and I really really miss that girl. If only she could come back, I'd really like to see her. But mow I sure as hell know that everybody can say RIP to that innocent soul of mine hahaha. I grew up, I learned and I changed.
Next, I do regret not mentioning names or not even writing/updating on the specific date. Its always one month or months after it happened. I mean, ah damn it such memories went to waste. I mean im getting older ya know so soon I cant remember everyone and everything. Mystery was the key before but now that mystery aint working so good on my memory hahaha I wish I can remember better after reading certain things. Especially names! I'm starting to forget names and certain people now, what the hell. Age is really starting to catch up. Oh oh and also pictures! Ah regret for not uploading pictures, those are memories too okay! Since 2009 till today, I've lost 2 laptops worth of pictures and I regret not uploading those pictures and now, its all gone.
Thirdly, I know there were times I was not inspired to write and skipped the whole year haih wish I at least share one highlight of the year so I have something good to remember about that year. Oh and also, how did I become so bitter? Wow, and I never knew I could be hopeless romantic and cheesy. Yuck! I had goosebumps reading those writings of mine hahaha I guess love can really make you feel a lot of things ey. I still cant stop laughing on how mushy and romantic I was eeee hahaha.
Next, I SHOULD WRITE MORE RESOLUTION SHIT ON MY BLOG. I mean just to keep track on myself and see if I really go out there, kick asses and achieve goals. Or just lying down on my bed wishing I fulfill those things and regret about it my whole life.
Lastly, realizing how much I've changed and how mature I've become from that naive innocent little girl. Maybe I am more realistic now. I mean seriously, life is starting to hit me up; Responsibilities, priorities changed, small circle of friends that matters, family is more important now ah those adult shit. I still cant believe I've lived for a quarter century. Ah even my tone of writing changed hahaha. I dont know, I would like to still see this blog 5 years from now and see if I still laugh my ass off reading my own writing. Actually, that old bubbly self of mine is inspiring me now to be that again. Who would have known my own blog, my own self can be my inspiration hahaha I am one twisted girl kan? Hahaha lets just wait 5 years from now okay.
Always reflect back and always set to improve yourself to live better life.
xx.
